Living and growing up on a council estate

FASHION, LIFESTYLE

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“People never make it from council estates” WRONG. “People from council estates are scum of the earth” BULLSHIT. “They’re all on the dole and do nothing for themselves” YAWN. People tend to judge and make assumptions as soon as you mention you come from a council estate. A lot of you who read my blog or follow me on Instagram probably didn’t have a clue I come from a council estate because I don’t look like the stereotypical chavy girl wearing crop tops with track suit bottoms and my hair in a side pony (however, believe me I did go through this stage at one point growing up haha). I used to be so embarrassed to tell people where I come from when they asked because I instantly thought they would have thought less of me and yes I have had some people turn up their nose at me but that instantly made me think a lot less of them as a person. I don’t care anymore, I love where I come from, I’m not ashamed of it and it’s made me who I am today. REAL. I appreciate things more and I’ve always had a lot of empathy for others since being a small child. I know what it’s like to have no money and grow up in the shit and I know how that feels for others going through the same thing. We take care of our own. My estate may not be pretty, it definitely has that grey concrete look everywhere, dingy alley ways and some graffiti on walls but there is a part of me that will always love that. It’s my home.

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For those who always think we sit on our arse all day this is also not true. I’m going to tell you a little bit about my Dad, someone who is truly amazing and I don’t tell him this enough. My dad worked since he was 16 years old and had to give up his second job to look after 6 kids. When my Mum died, he basically became our Mum and Dad all in one. He washed, cooked, cleaned, fed us, took us to school on time every morning, picked us back up and over all just made sure we had everything we needed to help us get through a dark time. I developed a lot of anxiety at a young age which gradually got worse in my teens and still to this day I struggle with it now. Being at college and having anxiety basically got in the way of me getting a job, and I really needed a job. Anxiety literally takes any energy and motivation out of you and it would make me feel so shit when an ex would just call me ‘lazy’ clearly never understanding. I got my first job when I was 19 after going through another rough patch of complete heartbreak because I wanted to prove to myself that I could work even if it was a struggle for me. There are so many things I am proud of and achieved which I never thought I would. My anxiety is a lot more under control and I’m able to enjoy my life so much more, I got into uni! (possibly the first person on my estate to go to uni haha) and I am so so so proud of my blog. Something I wanted to start a verrrrrrrrry long time ago but obvs had too many anxieties about it. But here I am, with a forever growing following and people who actually love to read my blog. I have met so many lovely people who I can call my friends through this blog and I’m so happy I kicked my lil butt to start this little page.

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Can I just say, It’s not all that bad living on a council estate y’know. I don’t want you to have a picture in your head of me working in the coal mine haha. My fondest memory was going to Wales every year with the family, being beside the sea with candy floss and ice cream and going to the fun fair. I remember going on my first holiday abroad and thinking ‘this is just like Wales but for posh people’ LOL it was only Benidorm. I remember playing out on the estate with the other kids who just understood me, making up dance routines to the Spice Girls and waiting for my Nan to come round so I could show her whilst she drank a cup of Yorkshire tea and buying the girls weekly gossip mag just so I could have the free lip gloss that came with it. There was so much fun and the kids I played with I can still call my friends today. I may not see them a lot and we may be into completely different things but they are always there whenever I need them and that is true friendship.

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Coat – Primark (similar) | Glasses – Depop (similar) | Band Tee – Forever 21 | Denim Flares – Forever 21

Luckily my Dad has cool music taste so I didn’t grow up listening to chav rave music. I grew up listening to The Clash, Sex Pistols, Human League, David Bowie, Rolling Stones which are all my favourite bands still today. Growing up listening to that music was the reason why I also had an interest in fashion, I didn’t want to dress like everybody else I wanted to look different. I didn’t want to have a baby at the age of 16 and be stuck at home on the estate, I wanted to see what was out there in the real world. I wanted to go to gigs and festivals and meet other people who wanted to do the same thing. I do get some funny looks when walking around my estate now, they look at me as if I come from other planet, purely because I’m wearing something they would never dream of wearing. But I still NEVER feel intimidated walking past a gang of lads because deep down I’m still the same old lil Starr who once used to speak to those gangs of lads. It’s nice to see them sometimes and be greeted with “Alright Starr!” instead of an intimidated look. Some of them doing well with a job and car etc and some of them not doing so well but we all come from the same place and like I said, we take care of our own.

This post was a little bit more personal than the usual and I was a bit worried about sharing this with you but I just wanted to give you the idea that not everyone from a council estate is a piece of poo. Have faith in us! People expect nothing from us and this is why some of us end up staying in the same old place forever.

All ma love to ya,

Starr

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Tulle you, Love from me x

LIFESTYLE

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To Single Lady,

     I am writing this late love letter to you because I was so busy yesterday, spending my Valentine’s Day in lovely restaurants and then I was whisked away to a castle to stay in overnight LOL JKE. I was too busy celebrating an early Easter, watching Pretty Woman in my own company with a crisp butty. Yep, Easter eggs and crisp butties. But that’s ok, right!? Yes, of course! Not everybody has a partner to celebrate the day of love and not everybody will have a lucky someone to whisk them away to a princess castle. Valentine’s Day can make us feel a bit down in the dumps for us single ladies and maybe have us questioning ‘Why am I single?’ ‘Why have I not met the one yet?’ and this is completely normal. This is my second year in row without a Valentine and this year I took it a lot better than I did last year. Last year, I was still moping around over an ex boyfriend who I thought was the ”ONE” but who obviously wasn’t the one because I would have been celebrating Valentine’s with him this year. But I’ve realised there is no point rushing into relationships and wasting time with people you don’t love just because you want to feel loved or wanted, this is a bad move. I repeat, this is a bad move. As cliché as this sounds, there is someone for everyone out there and you probably just haven’t met them yet. So gurrrrrrrrrrrrls pls try to keep up that girl power and appreciate your love for yourself at a time like this.

The effects of social media

FASHION, LIFESTYLE

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So, the other week I took a little break from social media as some of you may know. I did my best to try stay off Facebook,Twitter and Instagram and limited myself to just reading emails and the odd catch up on the bloggers group chat because those girls are the most supportive and wonderful gals ever, I salute you! I didn’t go full on cold turkey from social media but I definitely wasn’t on my phone for most of the day and I felt so much better for it. I somehow forgot there was a real world out there, I was constantly on my phone, not taking time to just sit down and enjoy a chat with my dad and I wasn’t putting my full concentration into anything. Soon as I woke up I would reach for my phone straight away and spend ages on it scrolling through Instagram and replying to comments. Being a blogger means you do need to be pretty much on the go with social media and posting regularly but I got a little too caught up in it all and started to feel very negative. I also found myself stressing and comparing myself to other bloggers a lot. I was questioning myself, why am I putting all my hard work into nothing and working for free? Why do I not have as many followers and engagement as this blogger when I’m working just as hard? Why does it feel like I’m getting nowhere? Why are all these other bloggers getting to do fun things and travel etc? These may seem like ridiculous questions to some but this was how I was feeling when I was spending too much time on Instagram comparing myself to other bloggers. Obviously, after my little social media break my brain was feeling refreshed and the reality is, is that everything is not how it seems on Instagram. No matter how many followers you have, how many times you go on holiday and all those pictures of us smiling and having fun, it’s not reality! Everything on Instagram is sugar-coated, no one has the perfect life, the perfect job or the perfect face, so next time you find yourself comparing, take a step back and realise it’s not all what it seems. We are all human.

Clarks Original Dessert Boots

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Ello! How are ya? I’m still hibernating from the cold, waiting for the summer…. PLS HURRY! These images were taken back in December by the lavely Lydia Maycock but I never really got round to sharing them with you (Translation: I completely forgot I had them and they were sitting in a dusty folder all alone). But hey ho, they are now out and open to the whole wild world. Back in October, some of you Instagramers may know I went to the AllSole Live event. To those who don’t know, AllSole is an online shop with a huge range of branded shoes from Dr Martens to Michael Kors. They held an event at Red Door in Manchester for Bloggers to explore some of their favourite shoes from the AW16 collection. The event all together was so much fun with lots of prosecco, live music, nibbles and goody bags involved. I know it was a while back but I’m thinking of doing a little throw back post on the event as I have some pictures I would love to share with ya!

Lightening up the January blues

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Hello alllll, hope you’re well. I’m currently hiding away in my favourite cafe (probs not the best place to hide haha) writing up some blog posts for you. I’m having one of them days where any socialising, communicating and talking is a no from me. I’ve got my builders brew, the tunes are on and I’m all by myself and pretty content about it, all I need now is a ‘Do Not Disturb’ sign and my cat . January has been so cold and there’s no sign of warmer weather anytime soon. To be honest, all I can think about is that chicken broth waiting for me at home mmmm!

Faux Fur Galore

FASHION, LIFESTYLE

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Hello you, hope you’re braving this cold weather! I hate the cold. It gives my skin and lips so much grief that I’m literally slapping moisturiser and lip balm on all day. I’m not enjoying photo shoots in this weather either, a Rudolf runny nose is not a good look and not being able to move my fingers is a pain in the backside too. Anyway, rant about the cold over… I’ve had a really good week this week! I’ve been really productive, got everything that I’ve been putting off for ages done and applied for uni. Yep, I’ve decided that I’m going back but to study a different course and this time I’m staying in my home town Manchester, BECAUSE IT’S THE BEST. Everything about Manchester I love! the people, the cafes, the music scene and even sometimes, just sometimes I love the weather. Manchester wouldn’t be Manchester without the rain and when the tiniest bit of sun comes out we really appreciate it by taking our tops off and wearing little dresses to soak up as much sun as we can before it disappears again.

New Year, just a little different me.

FASHION, LIFESTYLE

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Hello strangers! sorry that I disappeared for a while. Today’s post is going to be a pretty delayed new years post and a pretty long one so grab a cuppa! I started the new year with a nasty cold and on top of that a hangover (new year, same old me lol). I’ve also been building my own website for something exciting which I’ll talk about later. So yeah, they are some of the reasons to why I’ve been missing lately. Anyway, I hope you all had a lovely new year and well done to those who are sticking to new years resolutions, even if it is only the 8th of January. To those who are having the January blues and don’t really have any resolutions, not to worry!! It’s quite normal for some people to feel down in the dumps and hopeless when it comes to a new year. 

Geek Chic

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Hello little Christmas sprouts! Hope you all enjoyed the last couple of days spent with the family and boozing a lil too much. If your tummies aren’t looking like a pregnant women’s, did you even celebrate Christmas? I’m currently eating the last bit of ice cream left over from Christmas, I just can’t stop! 

I can’t tell if I was trying to resemble a bit of Harry Potter here with the mustard and purple combo and those round glasses or if I was embracing my inner geek? Definitely the geek. I’m gonna let you in on a little secret here… YES I DO SOMETIMES STAY IN ON A WEEKEND TO SIT AND PLAY ON MY NINTENDO DS GAMES WITH MY CAT BESIDE ME AND YES I DO LOVE TO DO CROSSWORDS! Phew, glad to get that off my chest. We can’t always make the effort to look cool and spend money on gigs, cigarettes and booze! At 21 years of age, I’m pretty content with searching Ebay for new DS games and I’m really not sorry if I’ve let you down.

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If you’re a trend follower of Gucci, you will know that they brought back the geek chic trend. Huge pussy bows, vibrant colours, big framed glasses and prints that your grandma would have probably had on her curtains back in the 70’s. What I love about the geek trend is that you can express your personality with it as much as you want. You can wear your favourite hat, dress, shoes, blouse, and socks all at once! Plus in the end, youre going to end up watching that popular girl you hate fall to her knees in tears because her boyfriend (the fittest boy in college) has chosen to take you to the prom instead. GO GEEKS!

Festive On Film

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Eeeelaaar! Hope you’re all well. I’m trying keep up with doing at least 2 blog posts a week from now on as I’ve got a lot of free time at the minute and like I had mentioned in a previous post, my blog is something I really want to focus on whilst I take a year out from uni. If I’m honest, I started my blog halfheartedly but it’s become something much more meaningful to me and I love having this space to write and share my outfits with you. One of my favourite parts of blogging is collaborating with other photographers. I love the whole concept of finding new locations, meeting new people and trying new things out, shooting on film for example! 

Dermalogica | #MyFaceMyStory

BEAUTY, LIFESTYLE

EVERY FACE TELLS A STORY

Good Morning! Last week I had the amazing opportunity to team up with Preen.Me and Dermalogica to experience face mapping, exciting! My skin sure does go through a lot for someone who struggles with anxiety, has the diet of a fussy 3-year-old (I’m not joking here haha), doesn’t always take off my make up before bed and for someone who has never really had a proper skin care routine due to products either making my sensitive skin worse or not working at all! So what a time it was to be alive when Preen.Me and Dermalogica asked me to collaborate with them! This post will take you through my journey of having my skin analysis and also product reviews.

Ok so, as you can see in the image above face mapping involves dividing the face into 14 zones which is carefully examined. The zones relate to different parts of our body for example, zones 1 and two are related to the bladder! 

Each zone on my face was carefully examined and then I was recommended products for each area that needed working on. My T zone, (areas 1,2 &3) are pretty oily. I always knew I had oily skin but I never  knew it was because of dehydration! We think that when we are dehydrated are skin would be dry right? Wrong! When our skin is dehydrated our body goes into panic mode and starts to produce more oils to try rehydrate our skin. Dehydration can be caused by many things such as not drinking enough water (I’m definitely guilty of this), not eating enough whole foods and it can be even down to those lovely radiators in our home that keep us warm this time of the year.

Areas 5&9 are related to the lungs and this is my sensitive area, so that probably explains the chesty cough I’ve just got over! This is the area that is mostly affected when I have a reaction to something also.

Areas 7&12 is where I tend to get condones (blackheads) which is pretty common in everyone!

Now areas 11,12 & 13 is where I usually break out as you can see in some of the images above. This area can indicate hormonal imbalance and stress. As I mentioned, I do sometimes struggle with anxiety and when my anxiety levels are high this is when my skin starts to break out. Area 12 also relates to the small intestine and with me eating foods that only seem to be the colour beige, my breakouts are finally starting to make sense haha! New Years resolution = eat healthier!!