Take time yourself

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A few days ago I had a bit of a crazy moment. I shut down my laptop, turned off my phone and cried. I couldn’t even watch the TV! Social media had got too much for me and on top of everything else it really took it’s toll on my anxiety. I had forgotten the last time I had took some time out for myself to just go for a walk or read a book, I was constantly on my phone replying to emails, catching up on Instagram, over working on my laptop as well as trying to reply to every single message right away. Now that’s not healthy. I began to miss deadlines for collaborations and for us bloggers this means missing out on money and having to explain yourself too, ANOTHER thing I had to worry about. I was getting very little sleep because I would stay up working until the early hours and then because I was looking at blue light for so long my brain was tricked into thinking it was day time. I would then put something on Netflix until I eventually would fall asleep to waking up feeling like I had been on a 5 day bender in Ibiza!! (maybe a little exaggeration but I sure felt that way haha) 

New Beginnings

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New beginnings! Two words that scare me to death but also excite me at the same time. Things are finally settling down for me now, my health problems are getting sorted, I’m finally deciding what I want from life and I HAVE A PLAN. Yes, a plan. I’m the worst at planning if I’m honest and that’s probably why I’ve been floating through this past year. Now that my poor broken body is getting back to normal I can finally plan and do the things I want to do.

The Fear Of Missing Out

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Hey guys, It’s been a while! there is a reason for that. I’ve been ill, yep! AGAIN. I thought I would talk about how I’ve been feeling lately because I know you lot like reading and relating to my lifestyle posts. It seems that I’m ill more than I am well lately and it’s getting me pretty down. It’s getting me down because I’m missing out on things. Things I enjoy doing the most. Remember that one kid who was always ill at school and had to be always taken out of lesson? Well yeah, I’m now kinda like that kid but in my 20s haha. Having a weakend immune system means I’m at home a lot and yes one of the advantages of blogging is that you can work and make money from home and that’s all fine and dandy until you’re home for too long. There’s only so much you can do.

What the hell am I doing?

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I’ve been looking through some of the questions I get lately to try to come up with some useful content for you and the most frequent questions I get are, Why and how did you start your blog? So today’s post is going to be answering those two questions. First, I will briefly go over on how I started my blog. So many people think you have to be a computer nerd to know how to start-up a blog, this is not true. Coming from someone who has no experience with coding/layouts and all that confusing malarkey, I must be doing something right, right!? To those who know me well, will know I can be a ‘little’ ditzy and it can take me a while to figure things out, but I do get there in the end haha! So, I’m going to talk you through on how I started a simple blog and how I still get some kind of income coming in.

Introvert is the new extrovert – Being successful in your job when you’re not good at speaking up

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introvert: noun –a shy, reticent person.

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So last week I read an article in Glamour magazine which really hit home for me. It was all about introverts and how we are becoming more popular. I was always the quiet one at school who hated sitting in the dinner hall because it was too noisy and over crowded! I never really enjoyed big social events and found them really exhausting and I hated being put on the spot which was a common thing in school because teachers seem to like picking on the quiet ones… like if I wanted to give my opinion I would have put my hand up right? Most of the time I get my energy from being on my own and doing my own thing, Sometimes I like to go to a cafe for a brew on my own, which is now being accepted when it was once frowned upon with the whole ‘loner’ thing. I’ll hang out with friends when I feel like I want to, rather than force myself out into every social gathering there is. In social situations I like to sit and listen to the other person rather than have quick pointless chit-chat and there is something I kinda like about awkward silences, they make us human! 

Relationships, anxieties, heartbreaks and finally becoming content by myself

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Last week was mental health awareness week so I decided to write up a post about something I’ve struggled with and that is relationships. I’ve written this post hoping that people will be able to relate and not feel alone. It’s so important that we start speaking up about mental health instead of sweeping it under the mat. This blog has always been a space where I’ve spoken about my experiences and it feels so fab to get feedback and other people sharing their stories or relating to mine. A while ago I wrote a post about living and growing up on a council estate (read here) and the feedback was just amazing. It inspired me to write more about my personal experiences and how I’ve dealt with them.

So, we’ve all experienced heartbreak at some point in our life or even some of you may be going through it right now. The type of heartbreak that shatters you into 15427648274 pieces and you’re trying your best to put yourself back together but none of the pieces seem to fit. The type of heartbreak that leaves you crying for weeks, months, years! The type of heartbreak that makes you feel so many emotions you feel numb. The type of heartbreak that makes you feel like it’s the end of the world and that you will never find love again. I know this is starting to sound like the start of a rom com film but we’ve all been there! I’m glad to say I’m not in that misery anymore and this is why I’m wanting to share my whole experience with it (but pls feel free to still send chocolates, ice cream and flowers my way pls).

How to stay inspired

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Hey hey! I thought I would write-up a quick post for you today on how I stay inspired and hopefully it may help you to stay inspired too. A few weeks ago I was ill, I couldn’t go out the house much so I was basically either in a hospital bed or in my own bed/couch. I started to feel really shitty about myself and my blog. I wasn’t able to get any posts written up because I couldn’t go out and get photo shoots done and I was surrounded by either my own home or nurses and other people who were ill. Don’t get me wrong I’m always truly inspired and amazed by nurses and doctors and what they do for us but I couldn’t help but stare down at my snot green hospital socks whilst hooked to a drip and think ‘I NEED SOME INSPIRATION, I AM GOING INSANE!’

Making the decision to become a pescetarian

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So, I’ve decided to become a pescetarian! purely because of 2 reasons! 1. I wanted to take on a new challenge and 2. Because I watched the video to The Smiths – Meat Is Murder and I never want to eat meat again. The way some of them treat animals is speechless. I had no words but only tears for those poor animals. I always had an idea what happened to those animals but I always shoved it to the back of my mind and never really thought about it when I was eating meat. I know pescetarian isn’t the same as vegetarian and I know fish are basically animals too but I’m not ready to take on the full vegetarian challenge just yet. Fish is one of the things that I eat quite a lot as it gives me the vitamins and omega 3 I need which I don’t get from my awful diet.

25 FACTS ABOUT ME

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Hello stranger! I’m back. I’ve been super busy with other exciting things that I’ve not had much time to blog. Today’s post is all about you, getting to know me a little bit more. I’ve had my blog over a year now so I think it’s time to throw in some facts about me! I warn you, they’re not very exciting…

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1. My full name is Starr Shannon Clare. However, still to this day people call me ‘Clare’ and I’m not sure why haha. YES MY NAME IS STARR.

2. My birthday is the 25th of November and I was born in 1995 which makes me 21.

3. I was born and live in Manchester.

4. I was named after a girl vampire in the 80’s film ‘The Lost Boys’ (very cool film, you should watch it!)

5. My favourite colour to wear is red, it makes me feel sassy and confident. It’s such a girl power colour!

6. If you didn’t know this already I’m obsessed with cats, CATS RULE THE WORLD.

7. I have a pet cat named Flash.

8. I have 12 tattoos and regret almost every one of them apart from my cat ones lol.

9. I eat tuna out of the can and I love it! is that gross? (it basically makes me a cat anyway)

Living and growing up on a council estate

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“People never make it from council estates” WRONG. “People from council estates are scum of the earth” BULLSHIT. “They’re all on the dole and do nothing for themselves” YAWN. People tend to judge and make assumptions as soon as you mention you come from a council estate. A lot of you who read my blog or follow me on Instagram probably didn’t have a clue I come from a council estate because I don’t look like the stereotypical chavy girl wearing crop tops with track suit bottoms and my hair in a side pony (however, believe me I did go through this stage at one point growing up haha). I used to be so embarrassed to tell people where I come from when they asked because I instantly thought they would have thought less of me and yes I have had some people turn up their nose at me but that instantly made me think a lot less of them as a person. I don’t care anymore, I love where I come from, I’m not ashamed of it and it’s made me who I am today. REAL. I appreciate things more and I’ve always had a lot of empathy for others since being a small child. I know what it’s like to have no money and grow up in the shit and I know how that feels for others going through the same thing. We take care of our own. My estate may not be pretty, it definitely has that grey concrete look everywhere, dingy alley ways and some graffiti on walls but there is a part of me that will always love that. It’s my home.

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For those who always think we sit on our arse all day this is also not true. I’m going to tell you a little bit about my Dad, someone who is truly amazing and I don’t tell him this enough. My dad worked since he was 16 years old and had to give up his second job to look after 6 kids. When my Mum died, he basically became our Mum and Dad all in one. He washed, cooked, cleaned, fed us, took us to school on time every morning, picked us back up and over all just made sure we had everything we needed to help us get through a dark time. I developed a lot of anxiety at a young age which gradually got worse in my teens and still to this day I struggle with it now. Being at college and having anxiety basically got in the way of me getting a job, and I really needed a job. Anxiety literally takes any energy and motivation out of you and it would make me feel so shit when an ex would just call me ‘lazy’ clearly never understanding. I got my first job when I was 19 after going through another rough patch of complete heartbreak because I wanted to prove to myself that I could work even if it was a struggle for me. There are so many things I am proud of and achieved which I never thought I would. My anxiety is a lot more under control and I’m able to enjoy my life so much more, I got into uni! (possibly the first person on my estate to go to uni haha) and I am so so so proud of my blog. Something I wanted to start a verrrrrrrrry long time ago but obvs had too many anxieties about it. But here I am, with a forever growing following and people who actually love to read my blog. I have met so many lovely people who I can call my friends through this blog and I’m so happy I kicked my lil butt to start this little page.

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Can I just say, It’s not all that bad living on a council estate y’know. I don’t want you to have a picture in your head of me working in the coal mine haha. My fondest memory was going to Wales every year with the family, being beside the sea with candy floss and ice cream and going to the fun fair. I remember going on my first holiday abroad and thinking ‘this is just like Wales but for posh people’ LOL it was only Benidorm. I remember playing out on the estate with the other kids who just understood me, making up dance routines to the Spice Girls and waiting for my Nan to come round so I could show her whilst she drank a cup of Yorkshire tea and buying the girls weekly gossip mag just so I could have the free lip gloss that came with it. There was so much fun and the kids I played with I can still call my friends today. I may not see them a lot and we may be into completely different things but they are always there whenever I need them and that is true friendship.

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Luckily my Dad has cool music taste so I didn’t grow up listening to chav rave music. I grew up listening to The Clash, Sex Pistols, Human League, David Bowie, Rolling Stones which are all my favourite bands still today. Growing up listening to that music was the reason why I also had an interest in fashion, I didn’t want to dress like everybody else I wanted to look different. I didn’t want to have a baby at the age of 16 and be stuck at home on the estate, I wanted to see what was out there in the real world. I wanted to go to gigs and festivals and meet other people who wanted to do the same thing. I do get some funny looks when walking around my estate now, they look at me as if I come from other planet, purely because I’m wearing something they would never dream of wearing. But I still NEVER feel intimidated walking past a gang of lads because deep down I’m still the same old lil Starr who once used to speak to those gangs of lads. It’s nice to see them sometimes and be greeted with “Alright Starr!” instead of an intimidated look. Some of them doing well with a job and car etc and some of them not doing so well but we all come from the same place and like I said, we take care of our own.

This post was a little bit more personal than the usual and I was a bit worried about sharing this with you but I just wanted to give you the idea that not everyone from a council estate is a piece of poo. Have faith in us! People expect nothing from us and this is why some of us end up staying in the same old place forever.

All ma love to ya,

Starr

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