New beginnings! Two words that scare me to death but also excite me at the same time. Things are finally settling down for me now, my health problems are getting sorted, I’m finally deciding what I want from life and I HAVE A PLAN. Yes, a plan. I’m the worst at planning if I’m honest and that’s probably why I’ve been floating through this past year. Now that my poor broken body is getting back to normal I can finally plan and do the things I want to do.
The first thing I plan to do is get back into uni. I mentioned in a previous post that I had to drop out of university last year due to illness and also because Huddersfield didn’t feel like a home to me, maybe because I didn’t give it chance or just maybe because it doesn’t have the spirit Manchester has. I’m planning to go back to university in Manchester to study International promotion fashion, a course I’ve heard great things about! I decided I wanted to go back to uni because although I absolutely love what I’m doing and I could eventually make a living out of it, I don’t know how long it will last. 10 years? 5 years!? Who knows? If things don’t go well with blogging, I will have a degree to fall back on rather than nothing and not just only that, my course will teach so much more about fashion promotion which will help massively with my blog. University brings so much more than just education too, you get to experience living independently, finding yourself and finding what people you like.
I’ve never been one to plan out life, I usually just take it how it comes. I have found that it does help with anxieties and uncertainty though. Even the smallest of plannings, like a to do list or a schedule. It’s that great feeling of ticking everything off on your to do list and the feeling of everything going as planned as you planned it to be! I’ve been trying to push myself out of my comfort zone and although it feels scary as hell it feels good to achieve things. I also wanted to talk about friendship groups in this post too. When growing up, some of us feel like we need to be liked by everyone and have a huge group of friends (even if we don’t like some of those friends). I’ve realised who my real friends are in the past year or so and I’ve cut out a few toxic people in my life. A friend who brings you negativity and a friend who doesn’t give anything back is not a friend. Think about the people you truly need in your life and get rid of the ones you don’t. I know, it sounds harsh but trust me you will feel so much better for it! Having your true friends and family around you means you won’t have to worry what they think about your life choices and opinions because they will support you no matter what.
This is for new beginnings! (champagne emoji)